I dont see why you have to do that. First, i cant see any of your photos, now i cant even write on your wall. Next what? Out of your life?

i need a good book to read. i miss you.

I feel that we are drifting apart. Ok, not feel. but we are. youre acting so weird towards me. I tried. But things are just so different now. You seem to have nothing else to say to me. Probably lost interest in me. I don't know what I did wrong. At least tell me. because telling me its due to schoolwork is all excuses. we made it through so many semesters and exams, I dont see how this differ. It's making me so miserable. it hurts to think that you dont care about me anymore. And im not as important as I used to be. I dont want to pick a fight. I just want to know why? Why are you behaving like this? like us doesnt matter to you anymore. You dont call back when I hang up, you dont send sweet msges anymore. You dont come up with names to call me. You said youre tired, you cannot think. But isnt such thing comes from your heart? like its at the tip of your tongue? i waited and waited for your sweet msges everynight hoping it will come. But it didnt. it never came. i missed those times you call me silly names and you send me stories so i can read them, and those sweet msges that made my night. but i guess now all i can do is to reread all of them one by one. What happen to you? what happen to us?

Dearest Alexis, my boyfriend and my bestfriend.

I know I am not perfect. I do things that made you mad many times and I am glad that you stood by me everytime. Going through all these shit that you didnt sign up for. We went through so many ups and downs, and no kidding, our relationship was hell of a rollercoaster ride. But being with you, was the best thing that happened to me last year. If time were to go back, I will still ask you the same question. I remember clearly what happened when we got together. I was busy with my assignment and we both got mad. I remember our first date at Bishan, and after our date you messaged me if we were going too fast. Silly boy of mine. Time flies when I'm with you. You make my world go round and round, like a disco ball. Everytime you kiss me, there's this tingling feeling that rushes through my whole body. I know sometimes I am unreasonable, hot-tempered, okay maybe not sometimes, most of the time. I truly am sorry, and I will change. I promise you that. I love you so much, it consumes me. I feel so helpless when you're sick at home yet I can't do anything about it. All I can do is to try and make you feel better through wapp. We have been through so much together, and I want you to know I will never leave you. No matter what. You make me so happy, so happy that I didnt know such happiness existed. I know at times i put you in such a difficult position, yet you still stuck by me. All these things you do make me realise how much of a fool I have been. Right there, standing infront of me, is a guy that loves me, yet all these while all i do is cause him hurt. I am madly in love with you and I will never stop loving you, never will. Everyday, I love you more and more. If it's even possible, everytime I see you, it feels like I'm falling in love all over again. Alexis Gian, I want you to know, I, Calista Goh, am crazy in love with you. You will never lose me, nothing you do will stop me from loving you. Nothing. Nothing else matters, only you. You say I am your sunshine, but in fact, you are my sunshine. You bring me everything. You bring me smiles, you bring me joy. And when I am sad you bring me laughter and strength to carry on the rest of my day. You bring me warmth and I know that I can always count on you to be there for me. And now, the only tears that I will shed are tears of joy, nothing else. I love you Alexis Gian. Always have, always will.

dota. the guys. dota.
where's calista?

Never first nor important. Always the second option. Have a happy 11th, playing dota.

They say falling in love is easy but staying in love is harder. Well, I wish you love me more. Show me that you love me. because words are just words. I feel like im just another person to you. Not even close to someone special. I do not just write on your wall for the sake of writing things there. I write to show how madly in love i am with you, and im not afraid of telling people that. But i guess, im never good enough for you. Im just me - another girl you know out of the many you do. Never the special one. Never the one you point and say, "that's my girl." All my wishful thinking. Maybe its time for me to stop watching fairytales because fairytales do not exist. Romance novels too. this kind of love doesnt happen to real people, or maybe, just me. Im just a girl looking for your love, nothing more. Just your love.